elynor's Xanga

A Never-Ending Quest For A Dream To Be

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 18:36:04 GMT

Dreams
Are dreams
That’s how they’ll always be

But reality
Is a fantasy
That you have to reach

Reaching the possibility
To a certain difference in your life
Like the difference
That is between life and death; it is only gained in time

If you live today
You’ll die tomorrow
If not physically
Then you’ll feel strangled in sorrow

Sorrow is a sea
A tangled sea
A sea so black, that you can’t see your reflection off of it

But only
If you believe
That you can do it, will you pull yourself, and rise up

But that too
Is a dream
A dream which you need to wake up to
So you can believe

Let the sun shine in from the east
And the moon from the west
But one day, you’ll know
Your heart will have found it’s quest

xoxo,

eLy....

haTe Me oR LoVe mE........

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 10:56:42 GMT

hate me or love me

i'm not perfect...

i'm not flawless...

i'm not that intelligent...

i'm brutally frank...

can't be ladylike....

sometimes i'm a clusts...

i think deep... and most of the time i'm complicated to talk to...

i'm not conservative... i do as i please... but i'm not a hoe

think whatever you want 'bout me....

actually.... i don't care...

i'm not kind....

i say what's on my mind...

i do as i please... some may not like it... but hell... i'm not plastic...

don't like to pretend....

i like thinking things over.... i don't like rushing into something without analyzing it... unlike before..

for me looks doesn't matter...

just as long as your not insecure, that really irritates me...

i'm sweet...

i'm a silent person...

i'm just me...

nothing more...

nothing less...

i rather be HATED for who i am... than LOVED for who i'm NOT...

i just dont get why other people is forcing the one they love, to love them back... and in the process becoming into something they're not........

call me a bitch... or whatever....

it only goes to show that your dying to be ME, instead of being yourself...

"Love", napakalaking oxymoron...

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 17:33:55 GMT

at dahil malapit na ang araw ng mga puso, pag-usapan natin ang "LOVE", isa nga ba itong napakalaking oxymoron?
nakakatawa talaga ang LOVE. isa siyang napakalaking oxymoron. lahat ng puwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo ay totoo pa rin. ang labo ba? pero ang linaw. masaya magmahal. malungkot magmahal. hindi mo ba maintindihan? pero naiintindihan mo. walang rason. hindi mo na kaya. pero kaya mo pa rin. masakit magmahal. masarap magmahal.

leche... ano ba talaga?!?...

may kaibigan ako, sabi nya dati, "love is only for stupid people". nakakatawa kasi laude ang standing nya, pero dumating ang panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. at ayun, tanga na rin sya ngayon. lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love, nagiging oxymoron din. o kaya paminsan-minsan, nagiging moron lang. hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig. lahat ng bagay nababaligtad din niya.
lahat ng malalakas na tao, humihina. lahat ng mahihina, lumalakas. ang mayayabang, nagpapakumbaba. ang mga walang pakialam, nagiging pakialamera. ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sagot. ang mga malulungkot, sumasaya. ang matitigas, lumalambot. (at tumitigas din ang mga bagay na madalas nama'y malambot). nakakatawa talaga. lalo na kapag dumating siya sa mga taong ayaw na talaga magmahal. napansin ko nga eh. parang kung gusto mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lang ang magic words na, "ayoko nang ma-in-love!"
biglang WACHA! ayan na siya. nang-aasar. magpapaasar ka naman.

di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng ibang tao, ang galing-galing mong magpayo? pero 'pag problema mo na yung pinag-uusapan parang nawalan ng saysay lahat-lahat ng ipinayo mo dun sa taong namumrublema? naiisip mong wala namang mali dun sa mga sinabi mo. pero bakit parang wala ring tama? bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi ng mga taong tinamaan ng madugong pana ng pag-ibig. "ngayon ko lang nalaman na ganito pala ang magmahal. sabi ko nga eh!..."
"ang sarap mabuhay. pwede na 'ko mamatay, now na!!!" at hindi lang 'yon. ang sarap din pagtawanan ng mga taong alam naman nilang masasaktan lang sila eh nagpapatihulog pa rin sa bangin ng pag-ibig.
tapos pag luray-luray na yung puso nila, siyempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan. siya!
"bakit niya ako sinaktan?" may kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader 'yon at pagbagsak ng pinto.

"nakakatawa no????"

sabi naman sa corinthians "ang tunay na pag-ibig ay hindi nagseselos, walang pagnanasa". yun namang kaibigan ko binugbog ng asawa niyang lalaki kasi hindi raw marunong magselos. ano ba naman yan sumusunod ka lang naman nabugbog ka pa. ang sakit nun ah, walang ganyanan. para malaman mo wala kang karapatan dahil pinagpawisan at nahuhubaran ang mga magulang niyan sa sarap... este sa hirap mabuo lang yan, tiniis kahit madilim tapos ngayon bubugbugin lang?!?

haaaaneeeeeeeeep talaga.

mauubos ang buong magdamag ko sa kasasabi ng mga bagay na nakakatuwa 'pag love na ang pinag-usapan. daming beses ko na kasi siya nakasalubong kaya masasabi ko ng eksperto na 'ko. pero wala pa rin akong alam. nakakatawa di ba? pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat ay ang katotohanang kapag gustong magpatawa ng pag-ibig, ipusta mo na lahat ng ari-arian mo dahil siguradong ikaw ang punchline.
"nakakaloka, 'di ba?"

My Soul Mate I have Found You!

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 18:01:12 GMT

If you could read my mind

There you would find
The two of us intertwined
The image of you I have memorized
I remember enough to fantasize
I close my eyes and there you are
In my mind, so you're never far.
I caress your lips, your face, your hair
And hold you close, so I can feel you there.
Our hands all over one another
Roaming in places meant only for lovers.
My heart, it yearns for you.
My soul, it reaches out for you.
In my every waking thought
I know you too have not forgot
The love we made
The passion, the bliss
I could never forget the way you kiss.
And though the ocean separates us,
I know again, I will feel your sweet touch.
You were sent to me from up above
To stay with me, forever in love.
Within my heart I know it's true.
Deejay, my soul mate, I have found you!

~i love you sheli~

Make Me Whole.......

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 22:10:28 GMT

Make Me Whole

Darlin' I want you to listen
I stayed up all night so I can get this thing right
And I don't think there's anything missin'
Coz a person like you made it easy to do
I've waited for so long
To sing to you this song

Coz your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole

I think the angels are your brothers, yeah
They told you about me, said "you're just what she needs"
And I find myself thanking your mother
For giving birth to a saint
My spirit flies when I say your name
If there's one thing that's true
It's that I was born to love you

You make my dreams come true over and over again
And I honestly truly believe
That you and me are written in the stars
I'd live my whole life through
Just giving thanks to you

_________________________________________________

"i'm here to love you, to hold you in my arms and to protect you. i'm here to learn from you and to receive your love in return. i'm here coz there's no other place to be." ~ love you sheli... mwahhhh

Ely

Painful Things

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 09:36:31 GMT

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which one to do is the worse kind of suffering."

Painful Things:

01. flashing your smile to someone you
don't want to see

02. bringing back the feeling you've
learned to forget

03. showing that you care

04. finding a way to mend a broken
heart

05. learning that you've been used by
someone you truly love

06. saying "i love you" when you mean
it and when you don't

07. letting go of a person you've just
learned to love

08. realizing that you love somebody
you've just taken for granted

09. realizing that you love the person
you've just broken up with

10. waiting for promises you know she
or he'll ever keep

11. saying your love for someone who
loves somebody else

12. reminiscing the good times u
shared together

13. shielding your heart to love
somebody

14. trying to hide what you really
feel

15. having a commitment w/ someone
that you know would not last

16. trying to hide the tears that
voluntarily fall from your eyes

17. sharing the one you love w/
someone else

18. loving a person too much

19. giving up someone you never
thought of giving up

20. falling in love for the first time

21. loving someone you haven't seen

22. having the right love at the wrong
time

23. exerting effort to make the
relationship last or work

24. not being appreciated when you
know you've given your best

25. taking the risk to fall in love
again

26. hiding your relationship from
someone else

27. controlling your feelings to avoid
hurting a friend

28. choosing between two persons whom
you really love

29. finding out that you can never
have the person you just let go of

30. seeing the person you love with
someone else

31. learning that the person who
claimed to have loved you so
much never really cared

32. seeing the one you love fall for
someone else

33. falling for your best friend and
knowing that things can never be the
same again

34. learning to trust after you have
been betrayed

35. accepting that it was not meant to
be

36. smiling when all you want to do is
cry

37. falling and knowing that it can
never be

38. not being able to love the person
who truly cares for you

39. saying that you can never love a
person the way he loves you

40. hearing that he can never love you
the way that you love him

41. saying that you are over someone
you still love

42. being friends again and learning
to let go of each other coz
you both know it is better that way

43. convincing oneself that you are
not in love when you know that you are

44. having to let go because you know
that he deserves someone else

45. trying not to remember how perfect
everything used to be

Life Is:

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 14:59:19 GMT

Life Is:

A mystery, Unfold it.
A journey, Walk it.
Painful, Endure it.
Beautiful, See it.
A joke, Laugh at it.
A song, Sing it.
A flower, Smell it.
Wonderful, Enjoy it.
A candle, Light it.
Precious, Don't waste it.
A gift, open it.
Love, Give it.
Unlimited Go for it.
Light Shine in it.

"Live life to its fullest & never look back, there is a reason for the future & reasons for the past." - Ely

How Big is Your Butt?

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 15:03:41 GMT

It is funny that in our lifetime we will notice butts of all sizes and shapes. Some Butts are bigger than others is just a fact of life just look around you. However the "But" I was referring to is not the one that moves from side to side when you walk down the street. It is the "But" that some of us use from time to time. Yes too many "But" excuses can be hazardous to your way of life.
I was thinking about it but I was going to but I want to but I wish I could but I wish I could but but but....These are the excuses we give for sitting on our butts. We tell ourselves we are waiting for something to happen.We tell ourselves something is missing. We tell other people we will do it, whatever it may be, but we never do. If you think what you need is not there , find it. If you can not find it, make it. If you can not make it, find someone who can. If you do not have the money to pay them to make it, get it done on credit. If you have no one to borrow from, ask someone else to borrow it for you. If you do not have credit get some. If you can not get credit, go out and do something that someone will pay you for so you can pay for what you need. There are no BUTS (___!___)so BIG they can not be moved. Once you move the BUTT(___!___), everything else will follow.

There are three kinds of people in the world: those who make things happen, those who watch things happen, those who wonder what happened.

So remember don't sit on your BUTTS (___!___) is just going to become BIGGER BUTTS (_______!_______). Just put it in action: I would sit here but I have something to do..

The New Best Recipe

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 14:53:52 GMT

Recipe:

1 Mind full of positive vision

1 Moment of openness

1 Second of willingness

2 Drops of readiness

1 Dash of love

Mix the above ingredients with trust and faith. Roll the mixture into a ball of clear intention. Knead the ball into a thin layer of belief. Smooth out any lumps and cover all holes with prayer. Gently place the layer of expected intent in a dish of great expectation.

Preheat your mind with warm loving thoughts of self. Allow the layer of belief to rise in words of praise and thanksgiving. Patiently wait for the intention and expectation to be divinely fulfilled.

Try this new recipe for today ingredients for living and loving..

New Wave

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 13:27:27 GMT